Thankful for struggles
Binge and emotional eating can come with a lot of shame and self-loathing.
I know this because that's how I felt most of the time during my years of struggling with it.
When no one was watching and I was eating...and eating...all alone, I felt those awful feelings.
When I was around food and people at a party or celebration, I felt self-conscious. I'd be so concerned whether people were looking at me as I felt urges to go back for more food. Did they see? Are they judging me?
Or the times I would hardly eat anything in public but then go home and binge, and then exercise or starve myself for hours to compensate.
So many negative thoughts and feelings about myself my eating behavior took up all my mental energy. It was exhausting to have my mind so obsessed and constantly focused on food and my body image.
I had no idea how to get out of this mental food obsession and body fear. Everything I tried didn't work (such as willpower and "trying harder" not to overeat).
The worst part? I felt like I had no one to turn to.
When my husband left, I finally went to a treatment for an eating disorder, but it wasn't the right path to freedom for me. It didn't seem like it was helping. It made me feel like something was "wrong" with me, and deep down I knew there was nothing really "wrong" with me as a person.
I later joined an online support group for overeaters, but it seemed like no one actually knew how to get out of the habit. It was support, but not real transformation.
No one close to me, family or friends, truly knew what I was dealing with, or at least they didn’t realize the emotional burden of my struggle.
Plus I was afraid of being judged, so I didn’t talk about it to anyone.
I finally found freedom through a long and winding journey of life changes & challenges that sort of "forced" me to change.
But now I realize the reason I was able to find freedom is because those unexpected life challenges were what allowed me to change all the mental & emotional habits that had previously kept me stuck in the overeating behavior.
Although it was worth it in the end, that long journey to freedom wasted years of my life and it came with some pain and suffering.
I wish I had known someone who had the right solution to help me break all the habits that were "feeding" my struggle.
Someone who could have actually helped me end my chronic overeating much SOONER.
I personally know how hard it can be to feel lost and feel like no one really understands, but I'm here to tell you that I do.
When it comes to feeling powerless and out of control with food and eating, I totally get it.
I get you. And I’ve got you.
That's why I've dedicated my coaching practice to helping women end binge & emotional eating, to find peace with food & their bodies, and live freely and in control around food without anxiety.
I am thankful for my struggle because it taught me so much about myself, AND it has allowed me to connect to a deeper purpose in my career as a dietitian and wellness coach.
I believe every person deserves to live a life that is FREE from food and body struggles, and I also believe it's available to everyone.
It does NOT have to be a life sentence.
But you do have to choose freedom and take the step forward to attain it.